02:35

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Every time comments on FB from you pop up, I have this twitch inside. I love seeing your full name written there.

@темы: you

01:20

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I told you about today. :) My word stands.

I don't cry anymore when I listen to this song. Because I managed to convince myself that it is yours and there's no reason for me to weep. It's you.
if i could meet my destiny, i'd save it from catastrophe

@темы: you, pics, remember

23:53

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I shouldn't be thinking that. You must be just gone to have a shower, aren't you?

@темы: you

18:35

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Ага, значит ты поймешь.
Приятно было это найти.


Я жду завтрашнего дня. Только бы дождь не пошел.

@темы: you

17:54

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
До конца экзамена еще 6 минут.
Какого черта я так трясусь?

@темы: you

00:47

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Я тоже весь день только об этом и думала. И сейчас. И весь день такая улыбка на лице... И буду.

Да, и насчет того, что ты УЖЕ увидела на ФБ. И насчет, конечно, сама знаешь чего.

Ты в самом деле знаешь больше.
Причем написала я это сама это не цитата уже после того как мы... поняли, что у нас обеих на уме.
А наблюдательность у тебя конечно Бальзаковская отменная. :D

@темы: you

02:34

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I am DONE with this thesis.

Hallelujah!

@темы: work

02:05

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I have a weird and warm relationship with that definition and reference about quantitative analysis.
It's like a grin of yours to the rest. In the eyes of everyone. And your grins are mine. Because I've always loved them.

Sometimes I want everyone to know about us. Know what it feels like. What this reciprocal intensity feels like.

I am fucking weird. And I sound Hamlet-kind-of-pathetic. But I do want it.
Damn.

@темы: you, work, remember

02:58

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Today I managed to finish:
- 2.1
- 2.2
- intro to Chapter 1
- Glossary
- Corpus Linguistics
- Introduction
- 1.3 edited

Left to do:
- 2.3
- Chapter 2 conclusions
- Conclusions
- Bibiliography
- PPT

- - -

Apart from this I had a great feeling of working together with you. Inspiration-driven me is very inspiration-driven. *smirks*

Now it's 2 am and I haven't had a shower yet. Damn.
*goes to shower*

@темы: work, работать негры, солнце еще высоко, ночные бдения

13:57

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I really hate these transition moments: from confusion to clarity. I can feel them as clearly as one can feel climbing one step of a staircase after another. Several minutes ago it was this "OMFG, there's no end to this" and then it's suddenly THE goddamn epiphany. Revelation of the actual simplicity of things. Order and structure and certainty and security. The feeling of "I know what's next and I know what to do about it". And the "nothing can bring me down".

The point is that I hate these moments because I know the chaos CAN go and the order CAN come. And I don't want the confusion to ever come back.
I want the calm and cold blood all the fucking time. So why can't I MAKE it come whenever I need it? Yeah, it's all rhetorical. And pathetic.


complete offtopic: I wonder if you have seen 36 Quai des Orfèvres. If not, I'd like to see it with you. It would be almost new to me because I managed to forget the plot and all I have left is the soundtrack that I love beyond any limit and the general feeling.


@темы: you, films, argggh, Гамлет

03:19

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
В этой жаре есть один неоспоримый плюс.

Какой?

@темы: you

01:56

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Голова болит так, что перед глазами все расплывается. Фак.

А еще я хочу повторения *с продолжением* сегодняшнего утра. Вот ТАК и заснуть с тобой, укрывшись чем-то тонким.
И я хочу чуть больше времени. Вечно я чего-то хочу.

@темы: you, argggh, remember

02:12

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Я заснула сидя на стуле и ты мне снилась.

@музыка: Флер - Улыбки сфинксов

@темы: you

01:43

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
someone you know
*speechless*
Damn. Just... DAMN.

P.S. No, not today.
Fuck, it kills me it is so obvious.


Going back to him. He's the first person I'd like to meet in afterlife, if any, and talk to. I'd LOVE talking to him. He is the only GENIUS I actually believe it. Fuck Da Vinci and stuff.
HE is unique. He was.

@темы: you, films

01:37

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I am reading F!S and going to sleep on the floor tonight. Because I like that floor.

@музыка: Флер - Улыбки сфинксов

@темы: you

00:48

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Иногда я просто ненавижу свою этику. Нет же чтобы взять себя в руки, надо поныть. Уу, взять и уебать.

Все прекрасно, немного поработала над дипломной, засела смотреть DS9. А еще я хочу еще серий ER.
Жду завтра, тебя и шахматы.

И есть хочется страшно. Но нельзя.

@темы: Гамлет

22:20

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Нет, ломка не проходит.
И мысль о том, что завтра тебя невозможно будет хотя бы обнять, меня убивает.

Чем тебя больше, тем больше хочется. Да, я понимаю, что есть пределы.

А сейчас я попробую заставить себя работать.

@темы: you, да, я идиот

00:07

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I want to kiss you right now.
Yes, I know that is not possible.


@темы: you, да, я идиот, Гамлет

02:11

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
I'll only write this and go to sleep, I swear.

You might remember me today saying smth about imagining talking to you...

read

@темы: you, my F!S, remember

15:23

Chess first of all teaches you to be objective.
Waiting for you, rewatching Annabell.

@темы: you